i guess i kinda hate most things, but i never really seem to hate you.
It’s just so fucking ridiculous. Why am i doing this to myself? You have me on a fucking leash, and you know it.
Story of my life.
But if I fall for it again I will be a fool. If our love is at the end, then why do I still want you?
I’m so sad. I would be content with not waking up tomorrow. Sometimes I ask to just not wake up. This world is so ugly and selfish and lonely. Everyone either only cares about themselves or is so burnt out from being burned. I want to give up. I’m so tired of life.
i’ve always stood by the quote ‘you make your own happiness’ and i used to believe that with all my heart.
but then you came into my life and switched everything all up. no one has ever made me feel as happy and complete as you do. you made me feel alive like i was worth something, that i was important. but there is a flip side; since you have the power to make my world you also have the opportunity to destroy it.
i think it’s because you know. you know i’m always going to be there for you. i’m always going to run when you call. it’s because i’m here and i’m around and you have me. so that means you can just ignore me and blame it on family or this or that and not tell me anything ever.
i’m so tired of you breaking me because i let you, because i’m so weak i can’t say no. i can’t not answer. i can’t ignore you. and i can’t treat you the way you treat me because i care too much about someone who doesn’t care about me. but when i flip out and say things i don’t mean because you’ve pushed me to a point that i don’t want to go to, i’m the evil one.
and i don’t know what’s worse: the horrible way you can make me feel when you are around or just not having you in my life at all.
lost alone confused heartbroken ignored worthless